Self-care
Self-care might be more than abstract advice offered by well-meaning but out-of-touch older advisors who simply don't get that it's cool to exercise your adulting privileges to their earthly limits.
I often think of myself in grandiose terms. For quite a while I'm the cool kid who's cruising the startup life #nostress; one bad performance review later, I'm a poser, who obviously is an intellectual outsider at his workplace. It's hard to care for both of these people; one doesn't arguably need your concern, where do you even start with the other?
We treat our friends much more moderately. Perhaps there's a lesson in that. I would spell it out, but the burst of anxiety-fueled exhaustion which led me to open my minimalist blog page for my first entry seems to be ending. It just recovered, but it was a close thing.
Oh hey, the title of this post is about and is self-care. Not too sure about the "about" part, this post is already meandering. Anyways back to it with my most recent thoughts on the subject as of five seconds ago.
Self-care can be exciting as well as calming. It can be strumming a ukulele to a good song (unsuccessfully; jury is still out on whether taking actual organized classes to learn it properly would be self care or just another chore I must assiduously avoid), or it can be writing a blog post to satisfy the humming of that part of the mind which wants to burst out and paint the canvas in any medium possible; which isn't satisfied with mediocrity, and would probably describe the rest of the mind in this respect in very unparliamentary terms.
5 paragraphs; is that a lot? Probably not. Then again, the only reason this is going on here is to make this my first official blog post, and to let out what I feel. That is to say, write some surface level shit to quiet down the deeper fears, but atleast the trapdoor seems to be creaking.
Side note: the blog design is very fucking cringe atm. Can't attach any images due to no pro, but just trust me; whatever I change it to when you read this again will be hopefully better.